"Sweet Misery" lyrics

I've got dirt under my nails
From trying to claw myself out
Of this self-pity induced hole that I rolled down
But don't lend a hand, you'll end up where I am now
Think I kinda like life when it's dark and ruin-bound

Anger's got a grip that I can't fight
I'm a stone cold liar if I say I've tried
This cloud's been raining on me so damn long
But that's relief to a man who calls a desert home

Good times left me in the cold
I found peace where nothing grows
Harvested the hurt 'cause the joy didn't feed me
Enough as sweet misery
Don't take me out to the light
Can't lose a spark if you never shine
Sick off the highs that almost killed me
I need sweet misery

Drinking up the feelings most people try to hide
It's a strange way of living when sinking is keeping me alive
Oh, I don't wanna leave what's dragging my happiness down
'Cause what am I then, when everything I know is washed out?

Oh, I'm still gripping the shovel that got me here
Fear if I let go, I might disappear
'Cause we're only worth the weight of things we hold
And all that I carry is a bag of bones

Good times left me in the cold
I found peace where nothing grows
Harvested the hurt 'cause the joy didn't feed me
Enough as sweet misery
Don't take me out to the light
Can't lose a spark if you never shine
Sick off the highs that almost killed me
I need sweet misery

Oh, I don't care there's pieces left of me
'Cause if I stay broke, I can't be broken again
Oh, I don't care there's pieces left of me
'Cause if I stay broke, I can't be broken again

Oh, I don't care there's pieces left of me
'Cause if I stay broke, I can't be broken again