"Victory In Defeat" lyrics

In spite of what they say, I'm still not right
Out of body out of mind and out of everyone's sight
But even through the struggle I still hold tight
Leaving the pieces behind makes it easier to feel alive

I need to live, I need to love, not just survive
Force myself, not finished yet, facing fears I thought I'd dreamt
Life don't wait for payment sent
And what I've earned hasn't made a dent

This isn't me, this isn't who I was supposed to be
A dead weight hanging on your words
The cast of my mold is cracked and for once in my life it feels
Good to accept that second place is a finish that we get

The weight of it all is crushing me

I'm trying to reach this level of peace
Where I feel nothing for anyone or anything
Maybe then I can finally sleep

Fighting for survival and trying to kill the pain
Searching for the sun in a world that always rains
Fighting for survival and trying to kill the pain
If it's peace I need so be it but I'll always curse your name