"Marionette" lyrics

Your body has a brain that goes against your own
I could look up
I could turn a blind eye
Marionette lines taking control
Break it down and swallow it dry

And I know I couldn't wait for your love
It ain't always gonna wake me up
Take a hit, ride along
Get a grip, collarbone

And you paid for those mistakes I made
It ain't hard enough to walk away
Carry on, play alone
Settle in, but you know I fold

When you're aiming at me, one eye closed
Like you know where it hurts me most
Do you think about December?

And you know it isn't lost on me
It ain't always what I thought it'd be
Sour blue, bitter tongue
Getting old, staying young

And I changed with every step I took
See your face in every place I look
Heavy lift, steady on
Get a grip, collarbone
You know I fold

When you're aiming at me, one eye closed
Like you know where it hurts me most
If you wrestle with the midnight cold
Do you think that you'd remember?
Every exhale was clouded smoke
And I stand on every word I spoke
Do you think about December?