"Catgut" lyrics

I couldn't dream
But I didn't care
I'm just breathing in the smoke
That's so much sweeter than the air
I'll never leave
I wouldn't dare
Found a home in these old bones
And I'm not going anywhere

I take aim
But I miss my mark
And there's no pain
When it all goes dark
When I don't see you there
Well I, I just fall apart
My world falls apart

I wanted to scream
And I wasn't scared
To press that blade against my throat
And drop my blood out everywhere
But what would that mean?
It sure isn't fair
To put my hopes into the hands
Of someone drowning in despair

I take aim
But I miss my mark
And there's no pain
When it all goes dark
When I don't see you there
Well I, I just fall apart
My world falls apart

I couldn't dream (I couldn't dream)
I hadn't for years (I hadn't for years)
No more room inside my head
So they came pouring out like tears
I wrote them all down
I sang them all out
Just shouting at my fears
Till none were left to shout about
Taking my shot
With a thousand yard stare
I let fly into the wind
And I hit nothing but the air

I take aim
But I miss my mark
And there's no pain
When it all goes dark
But then I see you there
And that, that just melts my heart
Don't let me fall apart

I needed to sleep
I wanted to dream
(But I miss my mark)
I wanted to shout
I needed to scream
(When it all goes dark)
I wanted relief
I wanted to share
(That just melts my heart)
I needed someone there
To hold my hand
And guide me through the gears
Of the machine