"MIDDLE OF THE END (HOW DOES IT FEEL)" lyrics

I know I do it to myself
I know I'm putting you through hell
If you could see inside my shell
You'd see that I'm in hell as well
I know our time is running thin
Where did we start, where do we end?
I say I'd do it all again
But I hate paying for my sins

So I just close the door
When I can't give no more

'Cause all I do is get fucked up
Go to bed, wake up and repeat it
Lost boy, I don't wanna feel no love
Spending too much time with my demons
When it all comes down, you're gonna thank me
Know it hurt but it was for a reason
Too deep, I don't think you can save me
You can't wait for me to believe it

So how does it feel?
Now you'll never be able to forget me
Swallowing pills
Try to forget 'cause I hate remembering
And everything you said
It tears me apart, I can't keep pretending
How does it feel
To be stuck in the middle of the ending?

And I said I'll try it 'til the end
I broke my back to comprehend
All of the things I can't defend
But it's just easy to pretend
And I'm not myself when I'm upset
So I drink all day 'til I forget
And I'm not quite sure what you expect
You fell in love with my regrets

So I just close the door
When I can't give no more

'Cause all I do is get fucked up
Go to bed, wake up and repeat it
Lost boy, I don't wanna feel no love
Spending too much time with my demons
When it all comes down, you're gonna thank me
Know it hurt but it was for a reason
Too deep, I don't think you can save me
You can't wait for me to believe it

So how does it feel?
Now you'll never be able to forget me
Swallowing pills
Try to forget 'cause I hate remembering
And everything you said
It tears me apart, I can't keep pretending
How does it feel
To be stuck in the middle of the ending?
How does it feel
To be stuck in the middle of the ending?