"Feel Something" lyrics

Tired of swimming up the waterfall
The tides always against me
Tired of feeling like it's all my fault
The weight's so fucking heavy
And I'm scared that once you've lost it all
The future's bleak and empty
Losing my grip
What if I slip?

I wish a lightning bolt would strike me down
In the middle of the pavement
I'd be smiling thanking Zeus
For all the agony he's saving
And I know it sounds dramatic
But my patience lost its patience
Trying to hold on
All that I want

I just wanna feel something
So I know where I'm going
I don't wanna feel nothing
But the embers all stopped glowing
And I'm scared a little bit
There's nothing after this
I just wanna feel something

All the tears they keep me company
Like raindrops in a shower
It's like a stranger moved into my mind
And cut the lights and power
Now there's thorns and nettles
Growing where I used to grow my flowers
Where did they go?
All that I know

I just wanna feel something
So I know where I'm going
I don't wanna feel nothing
But the embers all stopped glowing
And I'm scared a little bit
There's nothing after this
I just wanna feel something at all
At all
Something At all
At all

Tired of swimming up the waterfall
Tired of feeling like it's all my fault