"Promise" lyrics

I wish the best for you I swear it
Even if it fucking hurts
Promise you I'll parish and you'll find someone who puts you first
Sorry for the dirt I did
I was just a hurting kid
I ain't mean to fuck you up inside from all my words and shit
No
I'm so toxic and I fucking hate it
I change the topic when the truth's too hard for me to face and
I just wish that I could face myself
I'm too damn proud to ask for help I'm stuck in my own hell
Please forgive me I'm a broken mess
My hope is slipping through the cracks and holes inside my chest
I'm trying to keep myself together but I'm falling
Will I succumb from all this pressure oh it haunts me
Aw fuck here I go again
Always talking about myself lost in my own head
And then I wonder why I'm lonely I'm my only friend
Cause every time somebody holds me I feel cold within
But I love you and you know that shit
Promise you I'll come through and I'll catch you if you ever slip
Promise me you won't forget
Everything we've ever did
Promise you'll still love me when I'm gone and I no longer live
I know one day you'll be a great mom
And your heart will break no more from this pain I'm
Truly sorry for the goodness that I took from you
I know you probably regret everything I put you through
But I never meant a single thing
I love you dearly and that stands till' the end of me
My true love the perfect angel in my stolen eyes
What I would do to have you hold me tight for one last time