"Dysfunctional Me" lyrics
(Stay with Vegas on the way)
Tryna learn to grow, got shit on top of my shoulders that's been weighin' on
I been at home sober, sometimes off that drink I cry alone
Can't make nobody feel my pain and I ain't lookin' for no sympathy
Just 'cause we rap the same thing, never thought a nigga'd envy me
Keep on bringin' that girl pain, tell her how I'm gon' change
She believe me every time, and I fuck up, man what a waste
So much shit up on my plate but I cannot give up today
I ain't seen my son in over a year, fuck with me every day
I used to have a drug habit, chewin' X, I love candy
Sixteen, nigga, I was a daddy, bitch I was young as fuck
A child tryna raise a child, tell me what the fuck you supposed to do, huh?
As I got older I got better, nigga, I stepped up, I stepped up
Pain and anxiety, anger, depression
Trauma be my asset, was my life that I questioned
So fucked up and I don't know how to love, nigga, I don't get it
I don't understand but I keep tryna be a man to these women
Maybe I ain't good enough, shit, I'm probably in the low class
They say the money don't even matter, bitches go fuck niggas with no bags
I don't even feel like I matter, I'm depressed and sad
Can't even control my anger, bitch I'm a lil' boy
Pills gon' solve my problem temporarily
I need one wish, I'm not Ray J, where my fairy?
Walkin' down a dark road by myself
They say the demons outside, I'ma take the same road, this shit get scary
Searchin' for some love, the same love I got from granny
Runnin' through these girls, my mama only understand me
So that's what I look for inside a woman
Mentally I'm fucked, just leave me alone if you don't want me
Yeah, who the fuck that said time heals? They fuckin' lied
'Cause why the fuck I'm still hurtin'?
You ever felt so low in life, felt like you ain't serve a purpose?
But old boy did no comin' by, can't cap, that shit had hurt me
Hatin' on my [?], we are not a team though
Hit me right on top [?] my heart like we play bingo
Confused just like a kid inside the dark and I don't
Keepin' it real till this day, like talkin' real became a lingo
Ain't been gettin' sleep, no, my heart look like a peephole
Tryna cope with the weed smoke, shit real, I'm drinkin' Tito's
Gettin' drunk like every day (every day)
Still tryna change my ways
Life like a maze, I can't get lost inside
Swear to God you'll be amazed, find out your nigga ain't even ride
Same bitch you thought was holdin' it down, she outside tellin' lies
You could judge a man based off his woman, she better not lock them eyes
Tired of steady trying and when I try I get shot down
My anger make it no better, I done did shit that was foul
The feelin' I get when I pop pills, wish it was permanent
It's some shit that's takin' control of me, I don't know what it is
Got this feelin' of discernment, lately I've been worried
Ain't been inside the studio, I've been discouraged
Everybody just been kickin' game, they tryna twirl me
She just want me 'cause I got a name, these hoes be thirsty
Battlin' with suicide, who gon' win, it's you or I?
Y'all be thinkin' money change everything, while I feel dead inside
I been feelin' like my family gone, on my daddy's side
Everybody been so separated ever since my granny died
Jdot is dysfunctional, he not operatin' normally
He don't even function properly, what's goin' on?
Why nobody ain't went to check on him like [?]?
But when they need somethin' though, they ringin' Jdot phone
Snakes that's in disguise, these bitches tricky, [?]
Looked around, seen everybody dippin', they said they on my side
Like why the fuck would you say you love me, when you know you lyin'
Y'all ass ain't gon' be satisfied 'till I kill myself and fuckin' die
I'm Tired of all you bitches, fuck all y'all
I'm Tired of cryin', I swear to God
Tryna learn to grow, got shit on top of my shoulders that's been weighin' on
I been at home sober, sometimes off that drink I cry alone
Can't make nobody feel my pain and I ain't lookin' for no sympathy
Just 'cause we rap the same thing, never thought a nigga'd envy me
Keep on bringin' that girl pain, tell her how I'm gon' change
She believe me every time, and I fuck up, man what a waste
So much shit up on my plate but I cannot give up today
I ain't seen my son in over a year, fuck with me every day
I used to have a drug habit, chewin' X, I love candy
Sixteen, nigga, I was a daddy, bitch I was young as fuck
A child tryna raise a child, tell me what the fuck you supposed to do, huh?
As I got older I got better, nigga, I stepped up, I stepped up
Pain and anxiety, anger, depression
Trauma be my asset, was my life that I questioned
So fucked up and I don't know how to love, nigga, I don't get it
I don't understand but I keep tryna be a man to these women
Maybe I ain't good enough, shit, I'm probably in the low class
They say the money don't even matter, bitches go fuck niggas with no bags
I don't even feel like I matter, I'm depressed and sad
Can't even control my anger, bitch I'm a lil' boy
Pills gon' solve my problem temporarily
I need one wish, I'm not Ray J, where my fairy?
Walkin' down a dark road by myself
They say the demons outside, I'ma take the same road, this shit get scary
Searchin' for some love, the same love I got from granny
Runnin' through these girls, my mama only understand me
So that's what I look for inside a woman
Mentally I'm fucked, just leave me alone if you don't want me
Yeah, who the fuck that said time heals? They fuckin' lied
'Cause why the fuck I'm still hurtin'?
You ever felt so low in life, felt like you ain't serve a purpose?
But old boy did no comin' by, can't cap, that shit had hurt me
Hatin' on my [?], we are not a team though
Hit me right on top [?] my heart like we play bingo
Confused just like a kid inside the dark and I don't
Keepin' it real till this day, like talkin' real became a lingo
Ain't been gettin' sleep, no, my heart look like a peephole
Tryna cope with the weed smoke, shit real, I'm drinkin' Tito's
Gettin' drunk like every day (every day)
Still tryna change my ways
Life like a maze, I can't get lost inside
Swear to God you'll be amazed, find out your nigga ain't even ride
Same bitch you thought was holdin' it down, she outside tellin' lies
You could judge a man based off his woman, she better not lock them eyes
Tired of steady trying and when I try I get shot down
My anger make it no better, I done did shit that was foul
The feelin' I get when I pop pills, wish it was permanent
It's some shit that's takin' control of me, I don't know what it is
Got this feelin' of discernment, lately I've been worried
Ain't been inside the studio, I've been discouraged
Everybody just been kickin' game, they tryna twirl me
She just want me 'cause I got a name, these hoes be thirsty
Battlin' with suicide, who gon' win, it's you or I?
Y'all be thinkin' money change everything, while I feel dead inside
I been feelin' like my family gone, on my daddy's side
Everybody been so separated ever since my granny died
Jdot is dysfunctional, he not operatin' normally
He don't even function properly, what's goin' on?
Why nobody ain't went to check on him like [?]?
But when they need somethin' though, they ringin' Jdot phone
Snakes that's in disguise, these bitches tricky, [?]
Looked around, seen everybody dippin', they said they on my side
Like why the fuck would you say you love me, when you know you lyin'
Y'all ass ain't gon' be satisfied 'till I kill myself and fuckin' die
I'm Tired of all you bitches, fuck all y'all
I'm Tired of cryin', I swear to God
