"Best Of Times, Worst Of Times (Demo)" lyrics

Memories been hittin' lately
Knockin' at my head and wantin' to get in
Where the inspiration comes from
Couldn't say but it's the bane of everythin'

Now I realise
Now I realise
Now I realise
It was the best of times
The worst of times, yeah

Do you ever think about me
When you wake up from your unconscious sleep?
Denial head, what are you doin'?
Livin' with the cobweb feelings that you keep

Now I realise
Now I realise
Now I realise
It was the best of times
The worst of times, yeah

Help me 'cause I don't wanna face my past
It's history, delluded insecurity
It soothes me, the world turns slowly over sweet jealousy
I'd love to know exactly what you thought
About me now
About me now

Now I realise
Now I realise
Now I realise
It was the best of times
The worst of times, yeah