"middle name" lyrics

Friends are like tokens I switch out at the arcade
My dad calls me "Messy Jessie," my title's here to stay
Scream "I'm the victim!" while setting up the game
Send hate your way the second you don't call me bae

Fuck a stranger, born in a different decade
Preach "Love yourself" while I hurt myself today
Won't let them get close, love from far away
I hate that I enjoyed watching my body decay

I chase pain, I chase pain
I chase pain, I chase pain
Born with it like it's my middle name
I chase pain

My whole career was built on impulse
Never learned the meaning of the word "repercussion"
Parents never cared to give me a time-out
Never learned how to control my mouth

Fuck a stranger, born in a different decade
Preach "Love yourself" while I hurt myself today
Won't let them get close, love from far away
I hate that I enjoyed watching my body decay

I chase pain, I chase pain
I chase pain, I chase pain
Born with it like it's my middle name (my middle name)
(My middle name)

Can't believe I made it to twenty-four
Thank God I stayed away from the bottle
When I walk, I burn bridges
So I run unforgiven
I was never anybody's role model
I was never anybody's role model

I chase pain, I chase pain
I chase pain, I chase pain
Pray for the ones that never got away
I chase pain

Pray for the ones that decide to stay