"Shinitai Chan" lyrics

Awake, I opened my eyes to see
A hospital, so white and clean
I was walking up to the roof, I think
Then can't recall at all a single thing

Held a hand for me, you were there
I know, but couldn't reach
The me that would fall down all the time
But stand and reach my hand to see
Have you tried crossing over yet?

I wanna die, wanna die, but don't really wanna die
You were there, you would care, making me aware
Every scar, all the blood more and more, they're never done
Not enough, not enough

I wanna die, wanna die, but don't really wanna die
If I died, you would cry, and I don't know why
Every scar, all the blood more and more, they're never done
Not enough, not enough

When I forget you, I'm all alone without a place to go
But then played a mirror like a show
The past I used to know
A dream 'til I see every part of me
Eyes of red following

I wanna live, wanna live, deep inside I've always been
Reaching out for a hand, so don't let this be the end
Mushrooms growing on my head, still remember even then
Where you are when I'm dead?

I wanna die, wanna die, but don't really wanna die
You were there, you would care, you know it really isn't fair
Every time I forgot, you remain inside my thoughts
Not enough, not enough

I wanna die, wanna die, wanna die
But I still couldn't die with you by my side
Behind the days I spent alone, afraid
Now you're here to stay

La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la
And the scars never fade, memories that replay
Rewind yet again to the pain we felt on that day