"suffocating" lyrics

Old friends hit my line, they like, "Tell me how you been"
I don't really go outside, I feel safer staying in
And the ghosts from my old life keep on closing in
She like, "Juno, do you love me?", I don't know, well it depends
I should be happy but I'm not, but I will be
Closer to the top, they startin' to feel me
I ain't never been the type to tell you what I'm feeling
Sick of people talking like they ever knew the real me

I'm losing air, I think I'm suffocating
Hand on the trigger but I'm hesitating
Got off the bench 'cause I was sick of waiting
I'm going up and now they can't explain it
Fed up, I'm so sick of all the lies right now
She don't trust me, think I'm wearing a disguise right now
Honestly wish I could look into your eyes right now
Suffocating, I don't even wanna try right now

Try right now
Baby, if you want to, we could try right now
I think I gotta lie down
Tell me where you at, I'm on my way right now
Wake up and I'm pissed off, it's a new day
My friends stalking your socials telling me what you say
You don't care about my feelings and it's obvious
I don't got no air in my lungs and that's what my problem is

I'm losing air, I think I'm suffocating
Hand on the trigger but I'm hesitating
Got off the bench 'cause I was sick of waiting
I'm going up and now they can't explain it
Fed up, I'm so sick of all the lies right now
She don't trust me, think I'm wearing a disguise right now
Honestly wish I could look into your eyes right now
Suffocating, I don't even wanna try right now