"where do i put all this anger and sadness?" lyrics

Got my fifth drink in one hand
And I'm staring at the wall 'cause no one will call
And listen to me go on and on
About how life's unfair and nobody cares
Yeah a heartbreak will fuck you up good
I swear babe, I'm not done but I should be
If I drink enough
I can trick myself that we're still in love

So I keep going 'til the sun comes up
Hurting my soul while I scroll like
Why's she got so many friends
I should get my ass off of Instagram
But I can't stop comparing unfairness and
Her life is so good, here I go again
If I drink enough
I can convince myself that I'm still in love

So where do I put all this anger and sadness?
This envy and hatred is starting to rot my heart in my chest
I can't remember feeling anything but already [?]

So I'll wait for you
Or anyone to come in this room and save me
But no one will
So I'll sit right here, let resentment build

I'm sick of begging for love
If you wanted to you'd come pick me up
You know how bad I'm doing
And you still just let me ruin myself

I'm sick of begging for your love
If you wanted to you'd pick up
You know how bad I'm doing
And you still just let me ruin myself

So where do I put all this anger and sadness?
This envy and hatred is starting to rot my heart in my chest
Blooming like flowers grown already dead, eating at my head
And mocking the life that I could've had
If God did exist and gave more of a shit
Like he does for them, then I could forgive and forget

So where do I put it? Where do I put it?
All of this hatred, I hate it
It's turning me into someone else
I'd rather be anybody else other than me

Where do I put it?
Where do I put it?
Where do I put it?
Where do I put it?