"Perfect Crime" lyrics

I feel betrayed
I'm feeling some type of way
But I know I won't be the one to call them out

I'm super, I'm super swayed
I'm used to being persuaded
I've been pushed around this block once or twice

And I
I tried to push myself away this time
Cause the old me would commit the perfect crime
Trust me I know
I've seen it all oh she's done it all

I
Can I just write this song for me this time
Cause I always give myself up every time
And say I'm fine

I feel insane
You know I tried to behave
Cause I'm so fucking done with playing stupid games

I'm counting
I'm counting days to make my social escape
Cause I'm not good at confrontation anyway

And I
I tried to change myself this time around
Cause I promised that I'd make the small me proud
But who am I kidding, I've tried a few hundred times

I
I'm fighting back these demons every day
Do you really think I wanna live this way
But I always stay

And at the end of the day, I swear I promise
I'll let the guiltiness fade, move far from it
The girl who trades her soul to make their day

And like a heart made of glass, just please be gentle
She's still just trying to find what makes her special
She won't tell you but ask her anyway