"Faking It" lyrics

I've been sad since I was sixteen
Had lots of friends but it was draining
Staying up and getting no sleep
Trying to be someone who's not me
Dated boys who didn't get me
All they like is just what they see
And they all treated me shitty
Broke my heart and left me lonely

But I've been lying to myself to move on
I can't hide it, fighting it for too long
I'm done trying, what am I trying to prove?
To who?

Why do I even try to numb the pain? (Numb the pain)
Faking a smile to run away (Run away)
I'm lying when I say I'm okay
Just want everyone to go away
Why do I even try to hide the pain? (Hide the pain)
I'm faking it (Ah)
I'm faking it (Ah)

I sit here as my life goes by
Can't escape the demons inside
I swear to God I'm not the bad guy
Just ran out of tears to cry
Look in the mirror and I see
Somebody staring back at me
Don't know who I'm trying to be
Can barely recognize who I see

But I've been lying to myself to move on
I can't hide it, fighting it for too long
I'm done trying, what am I trying to prove?
To who?

Why do I even try to numb the pain? (Numb the pain, I'm faking it)
Faking a smile to run away (Run away, I'm faking it)
I'm lying when I say I'm okay (I'm okay)
Just want everyone to go away
Why do I even try to hide the pain? (Hide the pain)
I'm faking it (Ah)
I'm faking it (Ah)

I'm faking it (Ah)
I'm faking it (Ah)
I'm faking it (Ah)