"Healing" lyrics

I keep it bottled up
'Til it comes pouring out
Someone brings his name up
My walls all come crashing down

Take two steps back then take three forward
It's taking longer than it should
This heartbreak is all out of order
But it's all good

I'm learning
I'm grieving
I'm hurting
I'm keeping my head above water
And drowning my feelings
I'm up then I'm down
So sure of myself
'Til I doubt just about everything
And I'm picking up pieces
I'm slowly believing
I can still miss him and know I don't need him
'Cause moving on don't happen in a straight line it's uneven
I'm... I'm healing

I'm finding out losing him
Meant finding a part of me
That I didn't know was there
And she's all I need while

I'm learning
I'm grieving
I'm hurting
I'm keeping my head above water
And drowning my feelings
I'm up then I'm down
So sure of myself
'Til I doubt just about everything
And I'm picking up pieces
I'm slowly believing
I can still miss him and know I don't need him
'Cause moving on don't happen in a straight line it's uneven
I'm... I'm healing

I take two steps back then take three forward
It's taking longer than I want it to
But I'm gonna get there soon

'Cause I'm learning
Grieving
Hurting
Keeping my head above water
And drowning my feelings
Up then I'm down
So sure of myself
'Til I doubt just about everything
And I'm picking up pieces
I'm slowly believing
I can still love him and know I don't need him
'Cause moving on don't happen in a straight line it's uneven
I'm... I'm healing
I'm... I'm healing