"Ain't Been Sober" lyrics

I drink whiskey straight since you left me
And get drunk alone these days, it's depressing
I scroll through my phone just to watch people post
That you're in heaven

I sit outside just to talk to the stars
Barely play this old guitar
Traded Sunday service for the bar
Thought about crashing out in your old car

Damn it, I hate the way I miss you
Tryna write a song, put tears on a tissue
Found the bottom of the bottle, doesn't help me forget you
And I don't think it ever will
150 on the dash and it keeps getting faster
Run a red light like my life doesn't matter
At this point, I'm doing anything to fight for closure
Since the day you passed away, I ain't been sober

I made a promise I would sing that song at your funeral
The whole town showed up, I swear it was beautiful
They told jokes and they reminisced those times
They couldn't match the ones that I had in mind

I sit outside just to talk to the stars
Barely play this old guitar
Traded Sunday service for the bar
Thought about crashing out in your old car

Damn it, I hate the way I miss you
Try to write a song, put tears on a tissue
Found the bottom of the bottle, doesn't help me forget you
And I don't think it ever will
150 on the dash and it keeps getting faster
Run a red light like my life doesn't matter
At this point, I'm doing anything to fight for closure
Since the day you passed away, I ain't been sober

No, I ain't been sober
'Cause I had to watch you fight for your life
On the bright side of your deathbed
Begging "wake up", tears and makeup
Rolling down the side of your head
Curse the doctor, give him longer
I know him and me ain't done yet

Blackk, I hate the way I miss you
Tryna write a song, put tears on a tissue
The bottom of the bottle don't help me forget you
And I don't think it ever will
150 on the dash and I keep getting faster
Run a red light like my life doesn't matter
At this point, I'm doing anything to fight for closure
Since my best friend passed, I ain't been sober