"Gonna Drown" lyrics

Catalysmic rise
Built upon an empire of lies
The bigger they are, the harder they fall
So tell me now, how did I lose it all?
Caught in a spider's web
Of secrecy and crime
The echoes of the past call out
And the future calls back with a rhyme

How can I serve you?
Overlord
I'll never deserve you
Holy lord
When offered forgiveness
I got bored
So I stayed unforgiven, thrown
Overboard

Nothing left to lose
But there's nothing here to gain
Break these chains
And release this pain

All I want is to get away
From the misery, it's a mystery to me
How the hell can I get away
From my history and burn it down
I've talked it through with the pills and bottles
But they are not listening to me
A cry for help met with deafening silence
I'm gonna drown, gonna drown
Gonna drown, gonna drown

No longer human
But I fall flat on my face
The coping habits worsen
And the old is replaced
Another hurdle that's hurting me
Is infernal eternity
Burning me and returning me
To the same fucking place

Over and over and over
I am abandoned
Over and over and over
Nobody cares
Over and over and over
I am condemned
To a life of utter despair

All I want is to get away
From the misery, it's a mystery to me
How the hell can I get away
From my history and burn it down
I've talked it through with the pills and bottles
But they are not listening to me
A cry for help met with deafening silence
I'm gonna drown, gonna drown

Spiraling down my wasted life
The memory sharp as a knife
A blade that cuts me to my core
My soul can't take this anymore

All I need is to rise above
The misery, it's a victory to me
Holding onto the lessons learned
From my history, I will burn it down
Glass half full when the cycle starts
It's another chance to discover the true me
A cry for help now a blaze of defiance
I'm breaking out, breaking out