"If You Only Knew" lyrics

I walked by that old cafe the one we used to go to
I won't lie
You should have seen my face I thought I saw you
My mind was in denial but now I wanna talk
Oh I, I guess I'm missing you more than I thought

Wish that I wasn't so guarded
Is it too late to be honest?
Cause-

If you only knew
Knew I was drowning, dancing around the ugly truth
I'm not blaming you
'Cause I had my demons, you just didn't see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing
Wouldn't have buried my secrets
I'd write you a letter about everything
Holding my breath while you read it
If you only knew, I might still have you

Been through steps one and two of grief, I'm going through it
Are you still bargaining like me then feeling stupid
About the should've's the could've's
The what if's, the but if's, the maybe's
It's hard to accept that it could've been amazing
'Cause-

If you only knew
Knew I was drowning, dancing around the ugly truth
I'm not blaming you
'Cause I had my demons, you just didn't see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing
Wouldn't have buried my secrets
I'd write you a letter about everything
Holding my breath while you read it
If you only knew, I might still have you

If you only knew
Knew I was drowning, dancing around the ugly truth
I'm not blaming you
Cause I had my demons you just didn't see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing wouldn't have buried my secrets
I'd write you a letter about everything
Holding my breath while you read it
If you only knew
I might still have you

If you only knew
I might still have you