"small" lyrics

I've been holding my stomach in for so long
Don't even notice I'm doing it anymore
I work out hard, seven days a week
But I don't feel any differently

I wonder if I'll ever change
I don't think I can live this way

I wake up hating my body
Scared that there's nothing
That'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny
Quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?
Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Biting my tongue so much, it's gonna bleed
I'm killing myself but I don't think it's helping at all
Trying to be small
Oh-oh, ooh

Walk over me and I take it so politely
'Cause I still care what they think and if they like me
I used to smile and show my teeth
Now I don't smile at anything

I wonder if I'll ever change
I, I don't wanna be this way

I wake up hating my body
Scared that there's nothing
That'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny
Quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?
Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Biting my tongue so much, it's gonna bleed
I'm killing myself but I don't think it's helping at all
Trying to be

Everything that makes me sad
A therapist, a punching bag
Wish I could eat and not feel bad
Swear I'm gonna scream
No one's ever listening
And they don't care it's killing me
As long as I can fucking sing
Then life is a dream...

But I wake up hating my body
Scared that there's nothing
That'll make it better
If I'm not happy and skinny
Quiet and pretty
Do I even matter?
Hate being hungry when I go to sleep
Biting my tongue so much, it's gonna bleed
I'm killing myself but I don't think it's helping at all
I'm killing myself and I don't think it's healthy at all
Trying to be small