"Live In Pretend" lyrics

What are we but a small group of particles living till we turn to dust?
Are we free cause our home is a factory, handing out hearts to the loved?
Oh I think that I'll speak to my friends
If it's just to be entertained till the bitter end
And I wish that I loved myself like I did them
But I don't, cause I live in pretend
I can't sleep cause my heads in a mess and I need a little time to adjust
To the cricks and the cracks in this world
We're supposed to think we're not enough
If I could I would speak to my mother
Cause she'd tell me to look and to love one another
I wish that I loved myself like I did them
But I don't, cause I live in pretend

Zoom zoom I've been looking for xenon, have you seen her?
We made mess that we should really clean up for the rerun
She been the type of blessing I would
Dream of
Wake up exhausted, told her I need her said I don't sound like a Peder
But I put this dress on my damsel, I'm playing chess with my landlord
I never guessed I should dance more
(See you at the end)
I never guessed I should dance more
I should have wrecked my volcanoes and stayed home, stayed home
All I wanted was to see more, the story's really bout the detours

In this world on a hill there's a man (there's a man)
And he tells them all what to do with their only hands
And I wish that I loved myself like I did them
But I don't cause I live for the end