"Forestdale" lyrics

On the run from myself but the drugs didn't help
Getting numb to avoid all the pain that we felt
Some were lost in the future, some in the past
All we had was each other but we knew it wouldn't last
'Cause all my homies have a good reason
Some knew [?]
Say I'm fine but no one believes it
I know that they're gone but I can still feel it

I was numb to the bone, in the crowd all alone
Getting sick of my life, getting high just to cope
And my plans fall to pieces, heart turns to stone
Request my location, disconnect phone

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It's hard to separate facts from the fiction
It's hard to separate drugs from addiction

But I shoulda known better than
Thinking I was bigger than this
Read it in my suicide letter
When you find it, if you find it, I've been
A little better but
I'm holding it together just barely
You can return the sweater
When you find it, if you find it

I had my back to the wall, everything was going wrong
Need to feel a little love, don't feel anything at all
And now I can't see a future, sick and I know it
We were tryna find ourselves, getting lost in the void
I wish I could go back, give 'em all hope
I wish I could go back, tell 'em go home
Now I'm so low, not even a photo
How can you escape when your life is a black hole?

And now I'm lost in my head, leaving everyone on read
I can never get 'em out now, words I should've said
Now I don't have a future, can't stand my past
I just wanna see my friends, but I'll never get 'em back
I just wanna see my friends, but I'll never get 'em back

But I shoulda known better than
Thinking I was bigger than this
Read it in my suicide letter
When you find it, if you find it, I've been
A little better but
I'm holding it together just barely
You can return the sweater
When you find it, if you find it