"Anymore" lyrics

Hey man, just wanted to call and ask how you're doing
You look like you've lost a lot of weight
You look great, just checking in and wondering if you're alright
I can never when you'll disappear

Sometimes I question if I've got the guts to keep waking up
So I hide so no one sees me on the ledge when I'm about to jump
It's embarrassing preaching how to save when I'm perishing
Perishing, perishing, perishing, ooh (oh, how)

Oh, how I dream of better days and nights when I'm not so sick
But somehow I guess I'm not meant to heal, I'm not meant to live
'Cause my life's like therapy, I gotta pay someone to be there for me
'Cause if I don't I'm alone, I can't do this anymore

No, I can't do this anymore
I fight these words like I'm at war
Can someone find a cure 'cause I can't do this anymore?
I can't, I can't, no, I can't do this

Wait, yes I can, gotta "be a man"
Gotta hide the hurt, 'cause what's worse losing me or them?
No matter what I do, I lose regardless, I feel so heartless
That's why I'm always wrestling with who I am
And everybody's watching me, don't wanna let 'em down

But I, I can't do this anymore
No, I can't do this anymore
No, and I'm not the one you're looking for
Got one hand on the door, I can't do this anymore
I can't, I can't, no, I can't do this

I don't even know what I'm fighting for
Healing for myself or my childhood scars?
Living for a dreams how a nightmare starts
'Cause this ain't life, it's just surviving

I don't even know what I'm fighting for
Healing for myself or my childhood scars?
Living for a dreams how a nightmare starts
I can't do this anymore

I can't do this anymore
I'm fucking sick, I'm fucking sore
Don't care if I'm adored
I can't do this anymore