"What If..?" lyrics

What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat

Is it obvious?
That I'm floating toward an exit
Cause I'm always second guessing if it's obvious
That every question is an answer
To an answer needing questions

And now
I'm in the background
Of my own image
Where no one else can see me
(Where no one else can see me)
I paint myself there
So no one else cares
To see me leave my body
(To see me leave my body)

As soon as I feel better, start to see some better weather
The clouds roll in and my thoughts they all go

What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat
What if I'm all alone in my problems?
What if it's only me?
What if?
I never find some kind of gravity

Snap (Snap)
Back into myself
I should get some help
What the hell's been taking me so long
Selling all my shit
Just to pay the rent
There's no affording this
So typically

I'm in the background
Of my own image
Where no one else can see me
(Where no one else can see me)
I paint myself there
So that they don't stare
Or throw a pity party
(Or throw a pity party)

What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat
What if I'm all alone in my problems?
What if it's only me?
What if?
I never find some kinda gravity

Houston, anybody read?
I'm floating through the darkness, dying with my darkest thoughts...
Silence
No one's listening
No one says a thing
And as I float away I feed the core belief
What if I'm this?
What if I'm that?
What if I've gone crazy and there ain't no going back now?
What if I'm sick?
What if I've gone mad?
What if? What if?

What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat
What if I'm all alone in my problems?
What if it's only me?
What if?
I never find some kind of gravity