"dont let me go" lyrics

Lately my thoughts eating me alive
Laid in the bed, thinking maybe the hate will finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen, just like they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything's just fine

Sipping again, there I go slipping again, I'm acting different again
I see my family's reflection every time I look in the cup, and I sip it again
After the sins, tell me, after all the sins, will I be mentioned again?
Why do I care, if in the end it's just me and God, like I'm Christian again?

Yeah, Slim bring the beat in

Before my dad left to serve
He made sure I took on every quality I didn't want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I fucked it up, give me another one
I've been running from secrets I hid as a kid, and I never confronted them
I just called Ma
Said I forgive her for not being there when I needed one

I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back just let me go, yeah
I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, don't let me go

Who am I when the music stops
And the character that I've been playing is really just broken and fucking lost?
I swear, I've been telling you over and over again in all these songs
But they don't hear nothing I'm writing 'cause they're too busy tryna write me off
And they go on and on and on

It's funny 'cause if we just sat and talked
You'd see that it's just hard for me to be vulnerable 'cause I blocked it off
I got trust issues, growing up no one there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid when me and my father fought
Yeah, I'm medicating with something that I cannot pronounce, but it's what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient, with a pen and some paper the psychiatrist keeps evaluating
How can I live with the fact that my hand wasn't on her stomach when we lost the baby?
I don't got no one to turn to 'cause everyone's dead in my life that was tryna raise me

Searching for someone to tell me who I really am, I don't know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreading the day that the audience might not be screaming for me anymore
The feeling of dying alone and not leaving anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love as if I'm never coming back after I leave out the door

I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, just let me go, yeah
I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, don't let me go

I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, just let me go, yeah
I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, don't let me go