"Anti-Hero" lyrics

I have this thing
Where I get older
But just never wiser
Midnights become my afternoons

When my depression works
The graveyard shift
All of the people
I've ghosted stand there
In the room

I should not be left
To my own devices
They come with prices
And vices
I end up in crisis

I wake up screaming
From dreaming
One day
I'll watch as you're leaving
'Cause you got tired
Of my scheming

It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun
But never in the mirror
It must be exhausting
Always rooting
For the anti-hero

Sometimes
I feel like everybody
Is a sexy baby
And I'm a monster on the hill

Too big to hang out
Slowly lurching toward
Your favorite city
Pierced through the heart
But never killed

Did you hear
My covert narcissism
I disguise as altruism
Like some kind of congressman?

I wake up screaming
From dreaming
One day
I'll watch as you're leaving
And life will lose all
Its meaning

It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun
But never in the mirror
It must be exhausting
Always rooting
For the anti-hero

I have this dream
My daughter-in-law kills me
For the money
She thinks I left them
In the will

The family gathers
'Round and reads it
And then someone screams out
"She's laughing up at us
From Hell"

It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
It's me, hi
Everybody agrees

It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
At teatime
Everybody agrees
I'll stare directly
At the sun
But never in the mirror
It must be exhausting
Always rooting
For the anti-hero

It must be exhausting
Always rooting
For the anti-hero