"i finally went outside" lyrics

I finally went outside today just to get some sun
I'm just trying to get by today, no time for anyone
Then somebody came and said hi to me, they're talking with a gun
He said if you want to survive today well then you better run
Oh...

I finally went outside today just to run back in
I'd rather just get high today, is that so much a sin?
I play game right after game I think it's time for me to win
I run in circles up until I spin
I'm crawling in my skin, I think it's about the time I jump the bridge

Dedeedeedaydada
Dadeedeeday dadeedeedaydada
Ahh...

So let's go on a run today, let's go on a beach
Cause there's so many things that I would like for you to teach to me
I keep on overanalyzing everything I see
So take that pistol point it at my knees
Shoot me once then flee cause I'll start feeling something once I bleed
Ahh...

I finally went outside today and faked myself a grin
I try to act like everything is better than it's been
I play game right after game at this point I don't think I'll win
So chalk it up a loss and then begin
To teach me how to grow
The constant bullshit cycle's getting old
That's all she wrote

Dedeedeedaydada
Dadeedeeday dadeedeedaydada
Dedeedeedaydada
Dadeedeeday dadeedeedaydada