"Suffering" lyrics

Always getting nervous when I get a call
Don't want no one to know that I hit a wall
Take me back to when I was stronger
But I keep thinking that the medicine will fix everything
But the truth hurts
Worse when you're all alone
When your heart tells you lies
With the dirt in your eyes
No need to tell me why
There's no need to tell me...

I am struggling
'Cause I'm free falling down
I am discovering
That it keeps going down
Right into the dark where I won't be found
And maybe that's why I am suffering
'Cause I'm free falling down
'Cause I'm free falling down

Feeling under pressure even when I'm fine
Ain't nobody there to pull me out from my decline
The stormy weather
It follows me, follows me while I'm tumbling, tumbling down

I've been sick and fucking tired of feeling numb
The only thing I want is to give up
This will be the last time that I ever break
And there's no need to tell me why

I am struggling
'Cause I'm free falling down
I am discovering
That it keeps going down
Right into the dark where I won't be found
And maybe that's why I am suffering
'Cause I'm free falling down

Why do I feel this way?
You know I'm not okay
It's gonna break me

I've seen the worst in me
Wait until you see
I'm better left to bleed
I'd rather face it on my own

I am struggling
'Cause I'm free falling down
I am discovering
That it keeps going down
Right into the dark where I won't be found
And maybe that's why I am suffering
'Cause I'm free falling down
'Cause I'm free falling down
'Cause I'm free falling down