"Borderline" lyrics

I'm all alone, but I smile in every photo
Life of the party, laugh louder than the rest, oh
I go too hard, or I don't even get up
No in-between, no, I'm either on or off

I talk too much or I'm all shut down
Say I'm all-in but I'm full of doubt
Ai-ai-ai-ja, ai-ai-ai-ja
Run for my life 'til I'm far from home
Want to connect only when you're gone
Ai-ai-ai-ja, ai-ai-ai-ja

I pull you closer and then I disappear
I feel so borderline, borderline
I'm watching bridges burning through my tears
I'm so borderline, borderline
So don't believe a word, through the chaos and the hurt
I just want you to be mine
I pull you closer and then I disappear
I'm so borderline, borderline

I feel so borderline, borderline
I feel so borderline, borderline

I don't pick up, when I need to hear your voice
A couple days and I'm happy like I've never known
Sometimes I wake up and feel so monochrome
Won't be the first time I think I'm better alone

I'm deep in love, but I'm so fed up
I swear I'm fine but the truth erupts
Ai-ai-ai-ja, ai-ai-ai-ja
Light up the sky then I'm crashing down
If I could change, I would do it now
Ai-ai-ai-ja, ai-ai-ai-ja

I pull you closer and then I disappear
I feel so borderline, borderline
I'm watching bridges burning through my tears
I'm so borderline, borderline
So don't believe a word, through the chaos and the hurt
I just want you to be mine (Want you to be mine)
I pull you closer and then I disappear
I'm so borderline, borderline

No don't believe a word, through the chaos and the hurt
I just want you to be mine (Want you to be mine)
I pull you closer and then I disappear
I'm so borderline, borderline

I feel so borderline