"The Only One" lyrics

There's something inside me that wants to be free
Who gets to determine what we get to be

Don't understand what I'm going through
I had a plan, but, now, what am I supposed to do?
Not in my right mind
Try not to get emotional
'Cause in this lifetime
There is but a chosen few

I gotta focus
What the hell is happening?
It feels like something's coming after me
Deep inside and it's changing anatomy
These changes are breaking my reality

Try to control it
These urges, that's surging inside me, worsen
Is it a cursed blessing or is it vice versa?
Never considered myself perfect
Just a person
My world's swirling together like I'm seeing in cursive

I'm transforming into someone I don't wanna be
But this is something that I can't evade
It's coming and it's something I can't escape
I don't know if I should fight or just let it take
Total considered of me

I am the only one who can't forget the past
I am the only one who thought that the moment could last
I am the only one out here for all to see
I am the only one who thought that if I just believed

There's something inside me that wants to be free

I'm getting tangled in my web of lies
Should I try to keep it suppressed or should I let it rise?
Lately, I've been feeling stressed. It's like I'm dead inside
My anxiety and depression say to rest eyes
But all this trauma and this pain. I need to set aside
Look in the mirror. That is someone I don't recognize
Constantly thinking 'bout the people that I left behind
These thoughts swarming 'round my brain has got me bugging
Wish I had mental insecticide

Wondering, "Has anyone been through what I've been through?"
"Did I choose this life or is it another issue?"
"Should I throw in the towel, or should I continue?"
I'm overwhelmed by these feelings that I need to attend to

I need to harness the energy taking over me
Instead of me questioning my weakness and what I'm suppressed to be
Instead of a dose of copuim
It's head-first with no retreat
I'm cutting the strings off my subconscious until there's nothing holding me

I am the only one who can't forget the past
I am the only one who thought that the moment could last
I am the only one out here for all to see
I am the only one who thought that if I just believed

There's something inside me that wants to be free
Who gets to determine what we get to be