"Alive" lyrics

I just wanna feel alive
For the rest of my life

Damn, I feel like lately I been walking round in circles
With no purpose, tryna stop this shit from hurting, yeah
And what I'm sipping isn't working
So I hide behind the curtains of my smile on the surface, yeah
So momma please pray for me
'Cause these voices got me making scary choices in a dark place
Naw, I do my best to just avoid it
But them people that adore me see it written all over my face, fuck

I can't recall a time I felt so alone inside
I wanna end the pain tonight, but I don't wanna die
'Cause I'm afraid of falling but I ain't afraid to learn how to fly
So I'ma keep my head high, I just wanna feel alive for the rest of my life

For the rest of my life
For the rest of my life

Damn, it's like I'm stuck inside this Matrix
Like my brain is in denial, so depressive is patience, like
Am, am I ever gonna make it
Make it past the finish line and see the greatness?
I never thought that I could fall
And now I stand like two feet tall
I let my head up off the ground
To watch my world come crashing down

I can't recall a time I felt so alone inside
I wanna end the pain tonight, but I don't wanna die
'Cause I'm afraid of falling but I ain't afraid to learn how to fly
So I'ma keep my head high, I just wanna feel alive for the rest of my life

And I'm afraid of falling down
But I stand back up and I climb
I'm tired of living life high
I done made my momma cry for the last time
And when them walls come tumbling down
I put my back to the wall and I fight
'Cause I refuse to die tonight
I just wanna feel alive
For the rest of my life

I can't recall a time I felt so alone inside
I wanna end the pain tonight, but I don't wanna die
'Cause I'm afraid of falling but I ain't afraid to learn how to fly
So I'ma keep my head high, I just wanna feel alive for the rest of my life