"Just Like Him" lyrics

[Parker Jack:]
Yeah
Yeah

I'm trying to see things clearly
But it's hard when you don't hear me
I'm sorry it didn't work out
But I hope that it finally works now

Growing up shouldn't be quick
I guess I chose that path
Wanted be a man so fucking bad
I turned into my dad
Shaving in the mirror
I see the same loser that I grew up with
Wonder what he's doin' now
Prob'ly somethin' so disgusting
Spit up on the mirror
I really hate that fucking image bro
I didn't wanna be like him
But shit I wear the same clothes
Fuck the same bitches
Me and dad got the same hoes
Laughin' at myself like how the fuck am I like him bro
Sorry mama that I'm just like him but I don't try to be
The same fuckin' sickness that he has sits inside of me
But mom you always mad at me like why you always ridin' me
It's not my fuckin' fault that I can't deal with sobriety
Raise in the household where everybody is eyein' me
If I wasn't like you then I would fail in society
That shit wasn't right with me now I think it's horrible
Thought of my self lowly now it's lower then the floor we go
There more to show
My pain that I never chose to actually say
I know you prob'ly think that when you hear this I exaggerate
I'm sorry mom but it's time I actually get this off my chest
Just because I'm like him is that why you chose to love me less
I'm sorry that I'm not like you and I wish I could be the best
Overcame a lot of shit I'm barely even scratching surface
Overcame the trauma that I got so I can find the purpose
Still searchin'
Still hurtin'
I'm still workin'
And that pain hittin'
Growin' on me
It's gettin heavy
And that same trauma
Mattress ain't quite ready to leave like trauma that I got
So hold steady
Hold steady
(Hold steady)
(Hold steady)

I'm trying to see things clearly
But it's hard when you don't hear me
I'm sorry it didn't work out
But I hope that it finally works now

[Chyde:]
Maybe if I finally got attention as a kid
I wouldn't grow up as a rebel
With the Devil and his claws around me
If I thought that I was special
If I grew up with encouragement
Would I have more courage if I didn't get discouragement
It's hurtin' when I think about all the times you turned your back
Didn't have time for your kid
Wasn't I worthy that
If you really love me
Then why the fuck you treat me bad
Feel like you mad cause when you look at me you see my dad
I'm sorry mama but your rides made my life so stormy-foamy mama
And it hard to keep the thoughts inside me for the trauma
Nights finally catchin' up with me
Threw me out the house every time you had enough of me
It sucks to be the kid at school that no one comes to pick up
It sucks to be the one in the room your parents are sick of
So many things I suppress that I now come to think of
The one I was depressed as kid
Didn't get love
Throwin' punches, skippin' school
Used to think it was cool
Now I know what it means just cause I was missin' you
Tried to slit my wrist too
And walked around the pistol
And I was on the brink too
To get myself a pistol to finish it
This was the difference when I'm livin' but diminishin'
Livin' know I couldn't distinguished it
And I don't wanna be the one that run from all his problems
Feelin' like my dad's son cause dad's son left his father
The one protectin' me
You left when I was 13
Neglectin' me
Didn't see the depth of how it hurt me
Rejectin' me
On god I didn't deserve this
Maybe it's my fault
Sorry I wasn't perfect

[Parker Jack:]
I'm trying to see things clearly
But it's hard when you don't hear me
I'm sorry it didn't work out
But I hope that it finally works now