"Sorry Mama" lyrics

This is a message for my mom
And mom, when you see it
I love you to the moon and back
Forever and always

I'm sorry mama, this shit don't feel the same
And I wish that I could hug you
And you could heal out all my pain
But don't come inside my room
Cause I just push you away
And that's the point where I get lost
It's confusing in my brain
I battle all my problems, 'til I feel I've gone insane
I wanna cherish you, mama
But I embarass you, mama
I can't stop scaring you, mama
Are you aware of this, mama?
Cause I fell hope this is hell
My body's crippled by anxiety
I'm choking right now
No one that's joking right now
And me just sending you this
Is me being open right now
And I don't want you to feel
Like you have to hold the blame
It's not your fault that I cry
It's not your fault I feel pain
It's not your fault we don't talk like we used to
But everytime I mess up I feel like I bruise you
The last thing I want in this world is to lose you
And I love you, but this shit is hard to get used to