"STIGMA" lyrics
Parker Jack & Chyde Lyrics
Yeah
I went to a therapist
He's tryin' to tell me the thoughts that I have in my head are all bad
He told me write down my feelings
And tell him how I feel about them when they're on the pad
I give an explanation plus an exclamation
At the end just to show him I'm mad
Product of my environment
I don't mean to pass the blame
But I'mma pass it to my dad
I don't like to be the math
I don't like to be the stigma
I hate how it feels
I don't like walkin' inside of a room
And every person lookin' at me like I'll kill
Y'all don't know how that feels to the people that are mental ill
(Y'all don't know)
Y'all don't know what it's like to take pills every night
And my sudden will
Losing control the thoughts in my head
I lay in the blankets inside of my bed
Wait till the morning when I take my med's
Then let me show you the cycle again
I take about two by nine
Then one by three
Then six to feel anymore
I keep on zoning out all the time
No wonder the teachers think I'm doing poor
The teachers like telling my mother
That I cannot concentrate
Listening that I am bored
Praying to angels all of the time
Me while my demons just knock at my door
Here they come
Knock Knock are you ready for the violence?
Ready for the silence
That comes when you walk around
Trying to figure out if
You're misguided and everything is twisted one-sided
I've been trying to figure out all of the time
What this talking inside my mind is
Am I just crazy?
Why?
Why doesn't anything phase me?
Am I just lazy?
For thinking nothing about everything lately
I'm feeling it often all of my sadness
Find a way out as aggression
I went to the doctors looking for answers
But I came out with questions
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel this shame?
I blame it on trauma
Blame it on dad
For not showing the path
Depression I have
I blame it on mama
Blame all the drama my exes brought
For taking my heart to break it in half
Wish upon karma for everybody
That's lookin' my way
And wishing me bad
Sleep paralysis
I cannot sleep at night
That's when the demons are at it
Speaking of the matter thinking too deep
I guess it's just part of my habit
Been the example of bad
Psychiatrist is laughing
When I ask him
How are you gonna give me a psycho analysis
When you need it more than I am?
I went to a therapist
He's tryin' to tell me the thoughts that I have in my head are all bad
He told me write down my feelings
And tell him how I feel about them when they're on the pad
I give an explanation plus an exclamation
At the end just to show him I'm mad
Product of my environment
I don't mean to pass the blame
But I'mma pass it to my dad
I don't like to be the math
I don't like to be the stigma
I hate how it feels
I don't like walkin' inside of a room
And every person lookin' at me like I'll kill
Y'all don't know how that feels to the people that are mental ill
(Y'all don't know)
Y'all don't know what it's like to take pills every night
And my sudden will
Losing control the thoughts in my head
I lay in the blankets inside of my bed
Wait till the morning when I take my med's
Then let me show you the cycle again
I take about two by nine
Then one by three
Then six to feel anymore
I keep on zoning out all the time
No wonder the teachers think I'm doing poor
The teachers like telling my mother
That I cannot concentrate
Listening that I am bored
Praying to angels all of the time
Me while my demons just knock at my door
Here they come
Knock Knock are you ready for the violence?
Ready for the silence
That comes when you walk around
Trying to figure out if
You're misguided and everything is twisted one-sided
I've been trying to figure out all of the time
What this talking inside my mind is
Am I just crazy?
Why?
Why doesn't anything phase me?
Am I just lazy?
For thinking nothing about everything lately
I'm feeling it often all of my sadness
Find a way out as aggression
I went to the doctors looking for answers
But I came out with questions
Why do I feel this way?
Why do I feel this shame?
I blame it on trauma
Blame it on dad
For not showing the path
Depression I have
I blame it on mama
Blame all the drama my exes brought
For taking my heart to break it in half
Wish upon karma for everybody
That's lookin' my way
And wishing me bad
Sleep paralysis
I cannot sleep at night
That's when the demons are at it
Speaking of the matter thinking too deep
I guess it's just part of my habit
Been the example of bad
Psychiatrist is laughing
When I ask him
How are you gonna give me a psycho analysis
When you need it more than I am?
