"STRUGGLING" lyrics
Parker Jack & Chyde Lyrics
I can't catch my breath
I'm so used to struggling
I don't care about drowning
That's just how I live
I've been so down on myself and I hate it
I can't help me when my whole mind's racing
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
Rolling over out of bed is getting harder for me
The stress is causing me depression, and it's bothering me
And you expect me to understand why you argue with me
Telling me that I don't enough
Ain't how you started with me
It ain't a bad day
It's been a bad part
I just learned to trust the direction of when the bad starts
And I don't wanna leave or even contemplate it
But over-thinking makes me do it and it's awesome, ain't it?
Therapist watch us crumble
Tell us, "Control our breathing," like I ain't ever tried it, you genius
Is what I'm needing
I can't believe you told me, "Breathe," when I feel like leaning
And that's exactly part the reason I'm broken in pieces
I'm tired of feeling like this
I hope one day that I'll beat it
It's harder to catch a breath when your heart is taking a beating
You're educated, I guess, but it doesn't mean that you see it
Stop telling me how to live, if you ain't gonna help me achieve it
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
I've been so down on myself and I hate it
I can't help me when my whole mind's racing
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
I can't catch my breath
Man, I think I just need a second to reflect and get perspective
On my mental health and check in with myself what I'm suppressing
Parts that I'm neglecting
Thoughts that I'm protecting
'Cause nobody else is fucking helping
Can't really talk about it
So, I let the silence speak
'Cause when I talk about it, it feels like it's drowning me
That's why I walk around it
Head feels like it's clouding me
I just wanna walk up out of here
I don't just mean today
I mean I fucking end it
It's just a sad story
Play with no happy in it
Sometimes, it's hard to see that life is not what I intended
And if it's my time to die, will I be remembered?
I feel the lump in my throat and I just swallow it
Visualize the rope around my throat with a knot in it
I've been losing hope and I know I'm not proud of it
Life is just so cold, my whole soul's fucking tired of it
I've been so down on myself and I hate it
I can't help me when my whole mind's racing
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
I'm so used to struggling
I don't care about drowning
That's just how I live
I've been so down on myself and I hate it
I can't help me when my whole mind's racing
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
Rolling over out of bed is getting harder for me
The stress is causing me depression, and it's bothering me
And you expect me to understand why you argue with me
Telling me that I don't enough
Ain't how you started with me
It ain't a bad day
It's been a bad part
I just learned to trust the direction of when the bad starts
And I don't wanna leave or even contemplate it
But over-thinking makes me do it and it's awesome, ain't it?
Therapist watch us crumble
Tell us, "Control our breathing," like I ain't ever tried it, you genius
Is what I'm needing
I can't believe you told me, "Breathe," when I feel like leaning
And that's exactly part the reason I'm broken in pieces
I'm tired of feeling like this
I hope one day that I'll beat it
It's harder to catch a breath when your heart is taking a beating
You're educated, I guess, but it doesn't mean that you see it
Stop telling me how to live, if you ain't gonna help me achieve it
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
I've been so down on myself and I hate it
I can't help me when my whole mind's racing
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
I can't catch my breath
Man, I think I just need a second to reflect and get perspective
On my mental health and check in with myself what I'm suppressing
Parts that I'm neglecting
Thoughts that I'm protecting
'Cause nobody else is fucking helping
Can't really talk about it
So, I let the silence speak
'Cause when I talk about it, it feels like it's drowning me
That's why I walk around it
Head feels like it's clouding me
I just wanna walk up out of here
I don't just mean today
I mean I fucking end it
It's just a sad story
Play with no happy in it
Sometimes, it's hard to see that life is not what I intended
And if it's my time to die, will I be remembered?
I feel the lump in my throat and I just swallow it
Visualize the rope around my throat with a knot in it
I've been losing hope and I know I'm not proud of it
Life is just so cold, my whole soul's fucking tired of it
I've been so down on myself and I hate it
I can't help me when my whole mind's racing
I'm burning down
Crashing down with the ashes
I figured out
It's hard to thrive when you're damaged
