"God, I Needa Know" lyrics

Hey God, I need to know
Hey God, I need to know
Oh God, I need to know
Hey God, I need to know

I got a purpose in this world, [?] how to find it
They see the pain I'm holding in, 'cause it's been hard to hide it
Mixed emotions, I'm doing bad, tryna cope with violence
I'm really venting with this music, I can't help but rhyme it
I know it's light after the rain, some days just wanted go
I got a question, if God is watching, then he should know
I'm at the line of suicide, my brother hit the pole
They say I'm rich, they say I'm famous, I'm still all alone

I'm hoping heaven real, God I need to know
I'm hoping Suede ain't suffer, God I need to know
I'm hoping, will I make it, God I need to know
I'm hoping this pain passes, God I need to know
I'm in this [?] full of people, walk through like it's empty
I feel it snowing I can [?] even though it's plenty
I got a spirit full of darkness [?]
Shit, I recover from trauma, but look at how it left me
I can't seem to get shit right, I'm always doing wrong
Ain't nobody perfect, I know you hate me, just play along
I can't tell you what I feel, go listen to this song
They ask me why I never eat, I'm haunted by the pawn
No appetite, shit, all the killers know just what I'm saying
My [?] was stripped away, no bound with those who playing
[?] days ain't even fun, I spent them with [?]
Play if you want, them autos calling, find out where you staying

Spent time alone, tryna find peace, they said I'm acting different
My brother gone, no way he died, this why I'm acting distant
When you get money? Where I'm from, you from the [?]
It's hard with fighting depression and staying out the [?]
I just wanna move my mom from all mess and stress
My only flaws, I live hard, and give them nothing less
I told them no, he disregarded, like a thousand [?]
I [?] hide the pain with the way I dress
And it's been eating me alive, I live this dream alone
Me and my brother plotted this, but he ain't make it home
I guess a better life ain't promised, will you really struggle
We had a bleeding cry for this, it wasn't off the muscle
I used to pray, like, God help, the rent is overdue
My momma cry herself to sleep and wake up at the noon
She acted like we got it covered, deep down feeling lost
You can't just wait for it to come, you gotta pay the cause

Hey God, I need to know
Will I make it past the pain, God I need to know
Will I overcome the rain, God I need to know
Hey will I make it and be sane, God I need to know

Hey God, I need to know
Hey God, I need to know
Hey God, I need to know
Will I ever see a change, God I need to know
Hey God, I need to know
Hey God, I need to know
Hey God, I need to know
Will I make it and be sane, God I need to know