"Find My Way" lyrics

I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way
Way back to you (Yeah)
I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way
Way back to you
Uh, yeah

Certain things that I went through take a toll on me mentally
(Take a toll on me mentally)
I let go of everyone I love, but hold onto the memories
(I hold onto the memories)
I don't wanna have to take the blame for the things that I didn't do
(Take the blame for the things that I didn't do)
But I don't wanna take responsibility for all that I did to you (Yeah)
I'm in my thoughts in too deep, can't turn back now
Stubborn and selfish, yeah, I know, hard for me to back down
Hidin' my smile, pourin' my emotions in a red cup
Hate that I feel so deep, hate that I think to much
Tryna heal myself the same way I've lost myself (Lost myself)
Why I feel the more I try the more I'm not myself?
Maybe my head don't work, maybe the meds don't work
I wanna feel numb, maybe I'd rather be dead
Dead don't hurt (Dead don't hurt)

I'm tryin', (And without you right here, my heart is frozen)
I'm tryin' (Like everything I touch ends up broken, yeah) to find a way
(Me, I'm still searchin', yeah)
Way back to you (Me, I'm still)
I'm tryin', I'm tryin' to find a way
Way back to you