"Alone" lyrics

I am alive you think that I'd be optimistic
Look at my pride, should know by now I'm truly gifted
It's what you asked for! Growing up remember wishin'?
Things ain't the same, I'm kinda strange, my darkness sparking interest
Not pretending, my life a tight rope barely hanging on
I socialize in crowds but literally I feel I don't belong
Try moving on? Ask why I'm cold, people done me wrong
Problem solved, so just like Trump I had to build a wall
Started raining, now it's pouring, but can't rain forever
Heart is aching, just give it time, know it will get better
God forsaken, don't lead me down that path I won't return
These nightmares keep me wide awake, I try to sleep but toss n' turn
I'm on the highway bout' to swerve, watching as my life flashes
Hennessy might take control, had one too many, vision blurry
Close encounter grab the wheel, now we back on track
I'm not praying for an early casket, I still wanna rap
As I get older I am careful who I stand by
I'm disconnected from the world and I don't know why
Constantly distressed, under pressure tryna be my best
My demons waiting patiently, might let 'em out to play I guess

I'm losing grip, I can never sleep
My mind wonders, put it on repeat
They tell you hold on, stay strong, don't bleed
Fight another battle they don't ever see
I've been on a dark scary road
I don't wanna do this no more
Tell me why I feel so alone?
I don't wanna feel so alone
I've been on a dark scary road
I don't wanna do this no more
Tell me why I feel so alone?
I don't wanna feel so alone
I don't wanna feel so alone
I don't wanna feel so alone

Do I control my thoughts or do my thoughts control me?
I'm so relentless but inside I'm dying slowly
These pointless conversations I keep having with myself
Well now they're kinda getting old, no wonder why I'm overwhelmed
So detrimental to my health, it's like a vicious fucking spell
Downing booze until I'm oozing to forget the pain I felt
Cannot compromise, there comes a point I gotta draw the line
Or suffer with the consequences on my own so often I...

I'm losing grip, I can never sleep
My mind wonders, put it on repeat
They tell you hold on, stay strong, don't bleed
Fight another battle they don't ever see
I've been on a dark scary road
I don't wanna do this no more
Tell me why I feel so alone?
I don't wanna feel so alone
I've been on a dark scary road
I don't wanna do this no more
Tell me why I feel so alone?
I don't wanna feel so alone
I don't wanna feel so alone
I don't wanna feel so alone