"Angel vs Demon, Pt. 5" lyrics
[Angel:]
These memories are haunting ever since a little kid
Mischievous I was and I cannot outrun the things I did
I'd roam the halls, headphones in, so incompetent
No sense of my belonging was the opposite of sobering
I had no friends, no saving grace, when I was down and at my lowest
Acne on my face, it made me question if I'm even growing
Started smoking marijuana, started drinking out the bottle
Hanging out with all the wrong people, now in desperado
These suicidal tendencies are coming back again
I swear that if it catches up no second chance be happening
I lived my life a people pleaser, now I'm dealing with this reaper
Got my demons latching on so tightly I can't fight em' neither
[Demon:]
Sounds to me you're simply weak and no one lends a helping hand
Your family is disgraced with you, it's best that you abandon them
[Angel:]
Tell me whatchu mean by that?! I gave it all, I fucking can
[Demon:]
But you know it's too late and nothing's ever gonna change, my friend
Your sappy songs it says a lot, why don't you practice what you preach?
You give advice but never take it, hypocritical, I think?!
[Angel:]
Who are you to come and judge acting like you truly know me?
Just a voice inside my head, I move like Obi-Wan Kenobi
[Chorus:]
Still lost, tryna find myself
Looking in that mirror like who am I-I-I?
I'm tired of the pain, so tired of the games
I just wanna be alright, no lie-ie-ie
Still fighting (ooooh ooooh)
I'm surviving in this cold
One thing that I know
these demons they, will never take my soul
[Demon:]
Your step dad was abusive, know you wanna beat his ass
[Angel:]
I will not resort to violence, even though despite the fact
[Demon:]
Your father left when you were two, before you ever really knew 'em
No wonder you're tramatized, your childhood was fucking ruined
Still you gotta toke at night to calm your nerves or ease your mind
[Angel:]
I'm caught up in rotation like the earth in orbit all the time
[Demon:]
You must admit you're never fine!
[Angel:]
But I think I'm one of a kind!
And I think Ima make it through!
[Demon:]
You sure on that?
[Angel:]
I can't decide
I found my purpose when I write
I'm healing lives up on the mic
I bend but I won't break, I got my faith
And God is on my side
[Demon:]
Let's be honest brutally, say it with transparency
You don't wanna rap no more, this burden bringing agony
And when you pass away you'll get your 10 seconds of fame
Your name will finally reach the masses but won't be here to obtain
It's so sad and such a shame
[Angel:]
Must forgot I'm irreplaceable
My music will live on when I'm gone
Not debatable!
[Chorus:]
Still lost, tryna find myself
Looking in that mirror like who am I-I-I?
I'm tired of the pain, so tired of the games
I just wanna be alright, no lie-ie-ie
Still fighting (ooooh ooooh)
I'm surviving in this cold
One thing that I know
these demons they, will never take my soul
These memories are haunting ever since a little kid
Mischievous I was and I cannot outrun the things I did
I'd roam the halls, headphones in, so incompetent
No sense of my belonging was the opposite of sobering
I had no friends, no saving grace, when I was down and at my lowest
Acne on my face, it made me question if I'm even growing
Started smoking marijuana, started drinking out the bottle
Hanging out with all the wrong people, now in desperado
These suicidal tendencies are coming back again
I swear that if it catches up no second chance be happening
I lived my life a people pleaser, now I'm dealing with this reaper
Got my demons latching on so tightly I can't fight em' neither
[Demon:]
Sounds to me you're simply weak and no one lends a helping hand
Your family is disgraced with you, it's best that you abandon them
[Angel:]
Tell me whatchu mean by that?! I gave it all, I fucking can
[Demon:]
But you know it's too late and nothing's ever gonna change, my friend
Your sappy songs it says a lot, why don't you practice what you preach?
You give advice but never take it, hypocritical, I think?!
[Angel:]
Who are you to come and judge acting like you truly know me?
Just a voice inside my head, I move like Obi-Wan Kenobi
[Chorus:]
Still lost, tryna find myself
Looking in that mirror like who am I-I-I?
I'm tired of the pain, so tired of the games
I just wanna be alright, no lie-ie-ie
Still fighting (ooooh ooooh)
I'm surviving in this cold
One thing that I know
these demons they, will never take my soul
[Demon:]
Your step dad was abusive, know you wanna beat his ass
[Angel:]
I will not resort to violence, even though despite the fact
[Demon:]
Your father left when you were two, before you ever really knew 'em
No wonder you're tramatized, your childhood was fucking ruined
Still you gotta toke at night to calm your nerves or ease your mind
[Angel:]
I'm caught up in rotation like the earth in orbit all the time
[Demon:]
You must admit you're never fine!
[Angel:]
But I think I'm one of a kind!
And I think Ima make it through!
[Demon:]
You sure on that?
[Angel:]
I can't decide
I found my purpose when I write
I'm healing lives up on the mic
I bend but I won't break, I got my faith
And God is on my side
[Demon:]
Let's be honest brutally, say it with transparency
You don't wanna rap no more, this burden bringing agony
And when you pass away you'll get your 10 seconds of fame
Your name will finally reach the masses but won't be here to obtain
It's so sad and such a shame
[Angel:]
Must forgot I'm irreplaceable
My music will live on when I'm gone
Not debatable!
[Chorus:]
Still lost, tryna find myself
Looking in that mirror like who am I-I-I?
I'm tired of the pain, so tired of the games
I just wanna be alright, no lie-ie-ie
Still fighting (ooooh ooooh)
I'm surviving in this cold
One thing that I know
these demons they, will never take my soul
Writer(s): Greg Daniel Macdonald, Huy Tran
