"Barely Hanging On" lyrics

I'm lost again
Tryna find my way back home
Still don't know where I belong
Fighting, barely hanging on, I'm drowning
I'm lost again
Tryna find my way back home
Still don't know where I belong
Fighting, barely hanging on, I'm drowning

I been living for the weekend
When really should be living in the moment
Right now 'bout to plummet off the deep end
I don't know if I wanna keep going
A lotta people depending on me
Made a bit of money but I ain't complete
Mind keeps racing, I cannot sleep
Bottled up emotions, I'm so weak
Not a cry for help but often feels
Like I'm under a spell, got shit in my head
I don't know who to tell, say time heals everything
I'm trapped in hell, I'm becoming pessimistic
Will I excel? Honestly, I'm tired
Sick of myself from the outside looking in
Thinking I'm well, lost the desire
Tryna repel, I'm reaching out, uh

So much pain in my heart
But still I haven't given up on love
Come alive in the dark
Write my thoughts 'cause they're so robust
I don't wanna open up
I put that faith, now there's no more trust
I just wanna be happy
Without that, I'ma be forever stuck

I'm lost again
Tryna find my way back home
Still don't know where I belong
Fighting, barely hanging on, I'm drowning
I'm lost again
Tryna find my way back home
Still don't know where I belong
Fighting, barely hanging on, I'm drowning

I took my bruises, take my Ls
No excuses, I prevailed
Depression, man, it ain't no joke
Been stuck with it since I was twelve
I just need some time alone
Major issues got disowned
My phone on standby, no one calls
It's been three days, I got withdrawals
I'm going crazy
The way I'm living life lately is slavery
'Bout to take a couple years off dating
Had enough of the heartbreaks aching
Every part of my body so exhausted
Overthinking daily
I try to satisfy my cravings
But my dopamine levels fading, I'm just saying

Death isn't the answer
Grabbed that knife, put it right to my throat
As I sat in silence
Bawling, somehow didn't lose hope
Only sad songs on my playlist
That's the way it goes
I held my own
And walked a path that no one knows

I'm lost again
Tryna find my way back home
Still don't know where I belong
Fighting, barely hanging on, I'm drowning
I'm lost again
Tryna find my way back home
Still don't know where I belong
Fighting, barely hanging on, I'm drowning