"Down" lyrics

My life a book but I'm stuck up on the same chapter
I need a change to the point nothing else matters
My palms sweaty I've been hiding my anxiety
My OCD can't lie truly bothers me
I know my music helps you cope it is therapeutic
I spent my whole life walking around feeling worthless
There's a lot more when you look beneath the surface
Just know that you're not alone and you do deserve it
Hoping one day maybe will be understood
And say goodbye to depression that has left me shook
You see resentment when you look into my eyes
But one things for certain you won't take away my pride
I struggle too tryna find the words to say
So have to write it down only way I can explain
I feel I'm on the verge where I wanna runaway
There's not a single drug that can take away this pain

These walls are caving in
I'm losing all my strength
This world has got me down down down down down
No one to call a friend
They all leave in the end
I'm feeling hella down down down down down

Another day where I'm drowning in my misery
The things that used to bring me pleasure don't mean shit to me
I guess my dopamine is lower than it shoulda been
And how come every time I speak no one listening?!
I thought that changing my environment was the solution
But my problems still follow, there is no improvement
I see a failure when I look into the mirror
But everyone around me see a winner, it is clear
I cannot go on like this another fucking year
Even God I've been neglecting life is not what it appears
Dancing with the devil, got my finger on the trigger
I'm so close to giving in but I know I'm not a quitter
I'm a broken record, you can sense that I am fed up
I'll tell you how I feel, you'll just say to keep my head up
Maybe it is true I am cursed it's in my genes
Been handed down a century there's no point in helping me, no

These walls are caving in
I'm losing all my strength
This world has got me down down down down down
No one to call a friend
They all leave in the end
I'm feeling hella down down down down down

Why do I still dwell on things I can't fix?
My emotions get the best of me, a sad trip
Have good intentions but I've been lost in the Abyss
I pray I find my way out before my heart quits
You can call me pessimistic, I won't disagree
I see a life through a different lens, practically
I stay alone to protect my own sanity
I'm fearing of the unknown, waiting anxiously
Don't worry, keep going, everything will be okay
Be happy, why you sad? That is all they ever say
I'm mad, I'm stressed, put my limits to the test
Got everything I wanted yet I am such a mess
Truthfully, I should probably pray to God more
And practice gratitude, the key to open new doors
I'm stubborn, I admit it, that's a huge flaw
I feel like being stressed has become my new job

These walls are caving in
I'm losing all my strength
This world has got me down down down down down
No one to call a friend
They all leave in the end
I'm feeling hella down down down down down

These walls are caving in
I'm losing all my strength
This world has got me down down down down down
No one to call a friend
They all leave in the end
I'm feeling hella down down down down down