"In My Mind" lyrics

I need to laugh a little, I'm just going through the motions
I'd be stressing on my future, that's how I approach it
Still avoiding things that don't bring comfort so apparent
I often wonder what it'd be like to have both my parents
My mind a scary place to be my thoughts are so unbalanced
I smoke my pain away, sobriety has been a challenge
It's not a phase, it's everyday, I'm simply overwhelmed
Abandonment has been an issue since I was a child
A little hope I'm holding onto but it's slowly fading
Depression comes in waves and I can feel these walls are caving
If you're not winning in your mind then life is not fulfilling
I found my purpose but I still feel like I'm lacking meaning

I'm wasting away
Feeling like I'm six feet under
There's no escape
I still hate who I am sober
I should be alone
What I tell myself
Stress is killing me
I think I need some help
Praying to my God
It's raining all the time
Angel vs Demon
It's always in my mind

My life is full of empty promises I'm not compliant
I look into the mirror, it's pitiful and so defiant
Another year has passed but most days I am just surviving
I need some inspiration, I don't see no silver lining
Do not get close to me 'cause if you do you will regret it
I'm only holding grief, the path I'm on is not angelic
Sometimes I think I just got lucky by the grace of God
How did I make it here when I was facing all the odds?
I need your comfort, please I do not need another lecture
My mind is dark and grey, my demons love to bring me pleasure
I'm barely hanging on but fighting till the death of me
I need to know that you'll be there, I'm praying on my knees

I'm wasting away
Feeling like I'm six feet under
There's no escape
I still hate who I am sober
I should be alone
What I tell myself
Stress is killing me
I think I need some help
Praying to my God
It's raining all the time
Angel vs Demon
It's always in my mind

My stress is slowly killing me
When will it be over?
They say that time heals everything
But I cannot find closure

I'm wasting away
Feeling like I'm six feet under
There's no escape
I still hate who I am sober
I should be alone
What I tell myself
Stress is killing me
I think I need some help
Praying to my God
It's raining all the time
Angel vs Demon
It's always in my mind