"My Addiction" lyrics
I'm a mess, I'm a different person
Wonder how I became so cold
My reaction of late uncertain
When I looked into the mirror I froze
Saw the devil looking back at me
He just smiled 'cause I lost control
Not a glimmer of hope for me
To continue down this road
Just take another shot of the whiskey
Numb the pain, I don't wanna remember
By morning I'll wake up distressed
Gon' have the odds in my favor
I'm better alone I think so
What I tell myself on the daily
Gotta break from these bad habits
We'll be stuck forever sadly
My mistakes haunting me
Another fight, I cannot sleep
One wrong move I can't take back
The shit I said, I should relax
Why am I so bitter and how come when it rains
It always fucking pours? My fault once again
Self-worth is forgotten, don't think I have the strength
Been down this road before, when will I make amend?
Can't stand the person that I am when I am sober
Overthinking everything in my mind
It's so much easier to drink another bottle
Than just look at you and say that I'm fine
I get angry for no reason and apologize
A vicious cycle, cannot rewind
The pain I feel inside is eating me alive
My addiction got my wondering why
Don't recognize who I am
Go through the motions without a plan
Suffer in silence to be a man
I try my best, give all I can
Yet it's not enough, I'm finding out when at my lowest
Who was there for me? You care for me but do not show it
What's my way of coping? Drown myself in alcohol
I get wasted, not complacent, doesn't help at all
My mistakes haunting me
Another fight, I cannot sleep
One wrong move I can't take back
The shit I said, I should relax
Why am I so bitter and how come when it rains
It always fucking pours? My fault once again
Self-worth is forgotten, don't think I have the strength
Been down this road before, when will I make amend?
Can't stand the person that I am when I am sober
Overthinking everything in my mind
It's so much easier to drink another bottle
Than just look at you and say that I'm fine
I get angry for no reason and apologize
A vicious cycle, cannot rewind
The pain I feel inside is eating me alive
My addiction got my wondering why
Wonder how I became so cold
My reaction of late uncertain
When I looked into the mirror I froze
Saw the devil looking back at me
He just smiled 'cause I lost control
Not a glimmer of hope for me
To continue down this road
Just take another shot of the whiskey
Numb the pain, I don't wanna remember
By morning I'll wake up distressed
Gon' have the odds in my favor
I'm better alone I think so
What I tell myself on the daily
Gotta break from these bad habits
We'll be stuck forever sadly
My mistakes haunting me
Another fight, I cannot sleep
One wrong move I can't take back
The shit I said, I should relax
Why am I so bitter and how come when it rains
It always fucking pours? My fault once again
Self-worth is forgotten, don't think I have the strength
Been down this road before, when will I make amend?
Can't stand the person that I am when I am sober
Overthinking everything in my mind
It's so much easier to drink another bottle
Than just look at you and say that I'm fine
I get angry for no reason and apologize
A vicious cycle, cannot rewind
The pain I feel inside is eating me alive
My addiction got my wondering why
Don't recognize who I am
Go through the motions without a plan
Suffer in silence to be a man
I try my best, give all I can
Yet it's not enough, I'm finding out when at my lowest
Who was there for me? You care for me but do not show it
What's my way of coping? Drown myself in alcohol
I get wasted, not complacent, doesn't help at all
My mistakes haunting me
Another fight, I cannot sleep
One wrong move I can't take back
The shit I said, I should relax
Why am I so bitter and how come when it rains
It always fucking pours? My fault once again
Self-worth is forgotten, don't think I have the strength
Been down this road before, when will I make amend?
Can't stand the person that I am when I am sober
Overthinking everything in my mind
It's so much easier to drink another bottle
Than just look at you and say that I'm fine
I get angry for no reason and apologize
A vicious cycle, cannot rewind
The pain I feel inside is eating me alive
My addiction got my wondering why
Writer(s): Greg Macdonald, Justin Hice
