"So Fucking Lonely" lyrics

Still lost hanging on by a thread
So much negativity up inside my head
I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired
I don't want the spotlight I don't wanna be admired
I just want something real where I feel something
Come alive inside gotta stop running
Started questioning if I chose the right path
But I've invested in myself to get where I'm at
Laying down hit the pillow but I can't sleep
Lost for words don't get mad if I can't speak
Been suffocating for so long now I can't breathe
Went on a bender seven days that makes one week
Guess I better snap back get my shit together
Either that or relapse scary seven letters
I'm really tryna find a balance homeostasis
But lately been a nonbeliever like an Atheist yeah
My thought keep running
Thoughts keep running but I won't plummet
It's a double edged sword I'm so alone
Ain't no one coming
I say I'm fine but I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Looking at the sky it's dark and grey
Hoping and I'm praying that I find my way

Who knew
That this road be so fucking lonely
And I gave you
Everything I had but you disowned me
Who knew
That this road be so fucking lonely
And I gave you
Everything I had but you disowned me

From the outside looking in life's great
They don't see the sacrifice that I had to make
They don't see the pain they don't see the scars
They just see the fame wonder how I made it this far
I'm immensely involved in my passion
But these walls caving in and I'm crashing
All the people I used to be close to
No where to be found
How the hell did this happen?!
I'm simply exhausted
My body it aches get the tremble and shakes
Now my stomach is feeling so nauseous
I want to escape but I'm stuck in my ways
And the devil keeps knocking regardless
But I won't let him in I'ma fight till the end
Because quitting is just not an option
It's just not an option
No time to be stalling

Who knew
That this road be so fucking lonely
And I gave you
Everything I had but you disowned me

It's so lonely
So fucking lonely
It's so lonely yeah
So fucking lonely