"Self" lyrics

I self-sabotage, self-medicate
Self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head
Would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to

I'm a little late to the party
I'm a little late to the starting line
I could give a hundred different reasons
Why I don't believe in myself
Deceiving myself, I mean it

Never felt less than right now, yeah

Why can't I feel good without feeling so bad
Why can't I feel happy instead of feeling so sad
'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate
Self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head
Would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to

I guess I'm a little stuck in the past
Every mistake I make, yeah it takes me back to
A mess like the first time I felt love
From a boy who always told me I would never be enough, yeah
'Cause I was always different but I hid it well
There was something missing but you couldn't tell
I was in the middle of a breakdown
Wait now, everybody slow down
I don't wanna talk about this right now

Why can't I feel good without feeling so bad
Why can't I feel happy instead of feeling so sad
'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate
Self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head
Would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to

I just wanna feel
'Cause I know I was always gonna follow you
I just wanna feel
I just needed you to be my friend

Why can't I feel good without feeling so bad?
Why can't I just be happy instead of feeling so sad
'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate
Self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head
Would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to

'Cause I self-sabotage, self-medicate
Self-camouflage, self-isolate
I just really wish that the voices in my head
Would go and talk to someone else instead
But they don't want to