"HELL" lyrics

Come on, just call, this is hell, I know, I know
It's my fault, but I need you
Counting the hours till I get off this plane
Don't know what I'm gon' do (Yeah), yeah

The whole world's fighting, I don't wanna fight with you (Real)
Love you to death, girl, I see a life with you (Yeah)
Getting older makes it obvious what I want
Daddy issues hit hard, wait till father time hits you
I'm anxious, can't fake this
I was never good at patience, this space is so invasive
Everyday shit is difficult, I'm distracted
I got a movie coming out, but I don't feel like acting
Like everything's okay 'cause it's not (It's not)
Pain from the shame makes my insides rot
Drop 20K at Chanel is the least I could do
I be talking to myself when I'm not speaking to you
I'm tired of being me and fucking up
I'm wired, need to sleep, fucking up
Replaying, re-shaming
Check my phone, I keep waiting

Come on, just call, this is hell, I know, I know
It's my fault, but I need you
Counting the hours till I get off this plane
Don't know what I'm gon' do
Come on, just call, this is hell, I know, I know (Oh)
It's my fault, but I need you (I need you)
Counting the hours till I get off this plane
Don't know what I'm gon' do

Oh, there's nothing I can do (Yeah), oh (Yeah)
I don't get to just control (Yeah)
It's not about me, I know (I know)
Gotta wait till I get home
Do (Come on), do (What?)
Whatever you need, I'll do (Yeah)
Sitting with the person I'm running from now
'Cause I'm too tired to run

Yeah, the hardest thing to do is do nothing (Yeah)
But when you have some space, doing nothing means something
I'm stuck in the feeling of uncertainty
Living my raps, girl, I'm working on me
See that I can't do the same old nonsense (Yeah)
Blowing up your phone, hijacking your process (Come on)
Sit with it, that's real
Got a tendency to fix shit and not feel (Fuck)

Come on, just call, this is hell, I know, I know
It's my fault, but I need you
Counting the hours till I get off this plane
Don't know what I'm gon' do
Come on, just call, this is hell, I know, I know (Oh)
It's my fault, but I need you (I need you)
Counting the hours till I get off this plane
Don't know what I'm gon' do (Yeah)

I'm feeling safe, so now it's time to sabotage
It gets so serious, I'm bound to laugh it off
I know right where you are
If you could wait there, baby
Could you just stay there, baby?
I know it ain't fair, baby, but I'm crazy 'bout you, oh

Come on, just call, this is hell, I know, I know
It's my fault, but I need you
Counting the hours till I'm stepping off this plane
Don't know what I'm gon' do (Oh), yeah