"End Of The Year" lyrics

The end of the year is here
Try to brush it off but I'm still in fear
Tried to love a girl and she disappears
Think I might be mad tryna persevere
Some dream that I got that'll never work out
Held in a lot of feelings but they might burst now
When I listen back honestly I'ma hear the worst sound
And I'm feeling so regretful about the things I turned down
It's so real at the moment
Can't help but feel that I've always been broken
Forget the past and you choose to be hopeless
It's sad to see those who get hurt go unnoticed
Trust me I notice I was that person
Tried everything it seemed nothing was working
They told me to chill but my stomach was churning
I knew it was coming but still felt uncertain

Gotta recover from this
Might take a while I'm down to commit
I'll do anything to make sure I don't quit
'Cause I'm sick of the people who call me a bitch
Into these vibes time of my life
Why would I stop when some things aren't right
Thoughts can be killers I'm needing a fight
And they're getting aggressive I'm needing a knife
When can I stop When will they leave
Here 'cause the pain man I'm starting to bleed
Trusting in peace regained after wars
Life is a game but I stopped keeping score
They know that I wanted more
Stay up all night it's a quarter to four
Chasing my dreams because I can't afford
To go work in an office where they were before

Last verse
I don't know what to say
I would talk about my future
But that's far away and at this point I can't tell
If this is gonna pay off
Final rocket then I take off
There's no need for me to stay soft
Find the pieces when they break off
All want up when you double cross
I will make it at any cost
Sometimes you should be your own boss
Can't listen to nobody 'cause no one really understands you
And when you find yourself they'll try their best to go disband you