"RUSSIAN ROULETTE" lyrics

I was born a rare breed and knew my type was endangered
I'm gravitating towards anything that involves any danger
I took the trauma that I had and flipped that shit like a gainer
Cause growing up I wasn't nurtured now it's part of my nature
I had these people all around me say they fucking embarrassed
Cause I was chasing what I thought was in store like an errand
It's evident you envy, you acting out, it's apparent
You got a problem bring it to my manager like you Karen
I'm saying

Everything that makes me feel alive
Comes back to haunt me I'm slowly committing suicide
There's no way I can avoid it
I've got 50,000 choices
All of them end with the same thing
So I guess I'll pick my poison
I'm standing on the edge
Playing Russian Roulette
Pulling the trigger myself
Hoping it ain't my last breath
Cause I'd take far too many regrets

I ain't scared to run it
You can load up the clip
Fill it up with every round
I'll put it to my head and I'll click
Even if it's pointblank and I shoot that shit
It's still gonna miss, I'll bite that bullet
Giving that plot some entertainment and twist
I always took myself directions that ain't scared to resist
Taking the easy ways a route for somebody that's a bitch
I live my life in ways that when it's done and I reminisce
And death is knocking at my door I'll just greet her with
A kiss and with bliss

Everything that makes me feel alive
Comes back to haunt me I'm slowly committing suicide
There's no way I can avoid it
I've got 50,000 choices
All of them end with the same thing
So I guess I'll pick my poison
I'm standing on the edge
Playing Russian Roulette
Pulling the trigger myself
Hoping it ain't my last breath
Cause I'd take far too many regrets