"i dont wanna hold u back" lyrics

I don't want to
Hold you back
I'm too sad for you
We pretend that I'm not bad for you
There's reasons
I can't control who I was

You're off at school
I've been waiting to come
I get intrusive thoughts
When I spend time alone
I have friends who are assholes to the people they love
Makes me wonder if time makes you fall out of love
Or maybe ungrateful
Everyone is unfaithful
It's more on intentions
Not the talks at the table
The scariest part is falling back in routine
In hopes of a future
That no one can see

And when your minds made up
And we're all and done
There's no shame in saying
This here was fun
For a while it was special
It's hard not to question
It always hurts when it ends but

I don't want to
Hold you back
I'm too sad for you
We pretend that I'm not bad for you
There's reasons
I cant control who I was
And now I'm always
Skipping town
I'm skydiving
You're settled down
I'm drunk driving to
Someone's house
Because I'm sad and alone