"trauma trade" lyrics

You'll sing Dani California 'til you die
I know that my friend isn't really your type, but
You'll lead him on and break his heart, for what?
And you'll carry 'round that camera full of pictures
Dudes that wanted nothing but to kiss her
You don't know anything about true love

Sofia wouldn't do this
This is just a blueprint
This is everyday
I still feel ashamed
Sofia wouldn't do this
Growing up is ruthless
I shouldn't trauma trade
I do it anyways

I have to take a second to tell you I'll be okay
I think I'm in over my head, I keep on making mistakes
I let myself down again, it's something I have to change
They say, "One step at a time", but every mile I break

Sofia wouldn't do this
This is just a blueprint
This is everyday
I still feel ashamed
Sofia wouldn't do this
Growing up is ruthless
I shouldn't trauma trade
I do it anyways

You're somewhere, I'm in Portland
I wish it was Maine
I lied to you that night, I wanna see your face
Sofia wouldn't do this, but she does it daily
You ask, "What really happened?"
Girl, you drive me crazy